So this stupid fucking bitch is pregnant.. she is going to be such a bad mother.. why does she have to do everything I do? Im getting really sick of her stealing my spotlight. I know it sounds bad.. BUT THIS WAS MY DREAM IN LIFE NOT HERS! I want to fucking stab her.
Just once in life I thought I was getting to do something that she couldnt copy.
Bitch doesnt even have a baby daddy! One night stands and sleeping with married men? fuck off. you are such a whore. No1 has ever believed a single thing that has ever come out of ur mouth. your pregnancy is so new... yet you are still doing all these shitty things to your body. what does that say about how much you care? you dont. you never will. Dumb slut needs a fucking wake up call.
someone please remove her lady bits so she cant spawn more demons. her vagina is Hell. the more she lets out of it.. the more the earth is doomed.
thats my rant. Im done.
also... I want another baby.
It has been a while. Life has taken a strange turn, in the form of a wonderful guy. I dont get it. I really dont. But its great.
So far this yrs loss is 2.1 kgs. Im happy.
I have been sick for the last week so I have NOT been to the gym. But I have been doing other things and eating pretty well. Vick made me Lunch and dinner yesterday and both tasted so good. It was good to be away. BUT next time im bringing Kal.. I missed him while I was away.
I feel myself slipping in to a bad place again. I felt like food was the enemy a few days ago. It felt so bad. I felt like a failure.. I kept putting food off. All I know now is that I need to keep up all the things that are making me happy and healthy or I am going to fall back in that place.. behind the wall of lies and secrets. I dont want that.
wish me luck.
I joinede the Gym about a week ago. It is soooo much fun! I go for about an hour and a half a night. It makes me feel so good!
I met up with a friend from high school last night at the gym (Helen) she is an amazing person. I have been friends with her since I was 12 turning 13. Now we are both married and out of home. it is so insane the think that once we went to school and had problems that were so big that would now seem so small.
I have been looking in to facts on recovering an eatng disorder and I am planning on making a page dedicated to it.
My husband and my son are doing very well!
Im joining a Gym! Jetts 24 hour fitness. I cant wait to use all the cool equipment!
My husband founf my wedding ring that had been missing for the past 6 months! (just in time for our first year in 2 months)
I am very happy at the moment. I kind of feel that things are looking up again for me. Im happy.. Im healthy.. I got this really nice shampoo that makes a difference to the way I feel. lol. weirdo.
I stayed up last night making a gym playlist that has somehow ended up with over 200 songs.. and I havent finished yet haha
stay safe and stay tuned!
1.4kg gone this week! 0_0 I didnt think I would drop anything because I went away for the weekend. but I guess thats the beauty of exercise! I have started getting on twitter again! thats always fun and motivating. I have been sick for a few weeks but I will manage!
Kal started crawling on christmas eve so that was very cool! The holiday season is always busy for me and my family (as I am sure it is for you all aswell!)
stay motivated and keep checking back!
So I weighed yesterday! I wasnt expecting to be down ANYTHING,, because of the christmas rush and eating out lots.. but I lost 0,1 kg! LMFAO i lost something and that makes me happy.
Christmas was great! Bubbas first ever! my sweet little man. He was very good.. we spent sooo much time in the pool.. but I got a sun burn.. its almost gone! lol. But it was a good day!
Kal and mummy
So.. last week I had gained 1kg.. this week I lost 0.6kg. only 0.4kg and it is gone! so I am very happy!
I have lost 1cm on both my waist and hips.
i love seeing progress!
Despite the weight gain.. to date my weight loss is at 1.3kg. great! ^_^ still very good! I am hoping to get rid of t
So.. Im sick.Im off to the doctors today to find out what is wrong.. I hate being sicl! HATE HATE HATE IT! My throat is so sore..
BUT THAT DOESNT STOP ME FROM WORKING OUT! no way. Im not going to let being sick get in my way! forget it.. not happening.
On the plus side.. I figured out that when I download workouts
So today when I weighed... it said I had gained 1 kg.. wanna know why? I have my period.. and when I am due for my period I put on weight but it goes very quickly so no big deal! I didnt bother measuring my hips because of bloating.. and my waist has not changed.
I get really annoyed with being a woman sometimes. It sucks. bad.
But I thought I would still weigh and post my loss or gain.. because I am not ashamed of this.. it will come off when it is ready.